I'm Sorry

For those of you that are still here, that still read every post and look forward to new ones, thank you so much. To those of you that are new here, welcome. I'm sorry for the lack of posts. It's been a rough time for me and it's hard to remember that there's this website to post on.

The thing is life is kicking my ass. I'm a mother that can't look after her son because I'm constantly sick and that puts a huge damper on parenting. I'm a writer struggling with writers block. It's like my creativity is trapped in a box and it can't get out. I'm a human that is struggling with the idea of my life being frail, the realization that I'm not immortal.

The truth of the matter is I'm stuck. Stuck in a storm cloud feeling lost and alone and afraid, feeling confused and trying so hard to get out. I've been lost for months now. It's not easy feeling like every direction is more blackness and no matter where you turn you can't find yourself.

The world feels empty and even when I'm near people I feel a million miles away. My family keeps me grounded and I am forever grateful for that, I just need to overcome this whatever this is.

I will fight through it, for my son and my family but most importantly for myself. The journey has been long and god knows it hasn't been easy. It's an uphill battle but I will fight until the fog clears. Please bare with me until then.